"How satisfying it is to leave a mark on a blank surface, to make a map of my movement--no matter how temporary." -Craig Thompson

I have never wanted

so badly

to run up and down
the hallway
SCREAMING

FIRE FIRE
APOSTROPHE
ALASKA
SOUP

!!


I'm feeling all
lopsided,
balanced to the brim with
bottled up anticipation,
jittery toed, blue sky smiling,
like a sunshine colored fish in a blue tinted bowl


and maybe
a little more
incandescent
that I usually allow.



You'd think it was love,
and let me tell you,
maybe I wish
it was too,

More than likely,

I'm feeling intoxicatingly trapped in a place
that I both loathe and love.